I love the souful sound of Anthony Hamilton’s voice. That rough edginess that he comes back and smooths out with the choir-boy side of his vocals.

I fell headfirst in a pile of Anthony Hamilton vocals Sunday. That’s what I get for watching “American Gangster” again Saturday night. LOL This song kept playing over and over in my mind and so, when I got up to flesh out a few more scenes in my novel-in-progress, this song made the perfect backdrop.

Then…um…well…my mind got caught up in the soft edges of a dream I had last night. And…well…um…that’s probably all you need to know ’bout dat.

The “feel me” part reminded me that I wrote a poem a while back that spoke of “feeling you”. And so, I pair it here with Hamilton’s song.

Enjoy!

feeling you

in case you’re wondering
i’m…feeling you…

…in a mighty way….

ways that have me wanting to slip into your ear
whisper fresh poetry to you while you sleep
tuck my words into your subconscious
smiling shyly whenever you trip over a piece of me

ways that has me wanting to crawl into your mind
curl up with your thoughts
feel the ripple of them
stir me in ways that are physically impossible
until i’m laying at the base of your brain
in a mindgasm that leaves me wet, spent and…craving new thoughts

ways that grow not only my heart but my mind and my spirit
breathing easily knowing that, today, you are my forever
walking deeper into the life i was destined to lead
with you, my beautiful tour guide and traveling companion
finally understanding what it means to truly enjoy the journey

ways that paint me brave enough
to actually be the woman you see with your heart
the woman your spirit craves
your friend, your lover, your peace, your sanctuary….
your soul’s compliment

yeah…in case you’re wondering…

i’m…feeling….you

…in a mighty way

© Jackie Young ~ 2008

L’il bit of a confession: I think my “work ethic” is on life support. And….I’m not sure HOW to revive it.

And…I’m not sure I want to….

Though I’m sure my mortgage company, the power company, the gas/water company, etc. would all strongly suggest that I call in the top ‘specialists’ to turn this situation around.

I don’t know folks…it’s not looking good.

After a rather lengthy “vacation” from Corporate America last year, I can’t really afford another one (even if this time around, it’s self-imposed).

Not sure how to get in front of this little quandary. I mean, what more of an incentive do I need than the fact that mortgage is due in two weeks? Even in a economy that, to listen to John Mc.Cain is “fundamentally sound”. LOL

When talking to a friend earlier today, I mentioned that I was bored…in a mighty way. B-O-R-E-D. Not to be confused with under-worked because trust me – I have more than enough. See, when I get to THAT level of “BORED”? Generally speaking? What ever it is, it isn’t for me. And not amount of pushing myself to get tasks done changes that. No amount of positive self-talk.

So…what now? Um…didn’t I already say I didn’t know?

I *think* that’s the reason but I’m not sure and being the analytical person I am, I need to explore the situation a bit more. See, this time around, my discontent isn’t as easy to narrow down. Why? Because I happen to like the team I’m working with. I happen to like 90% of the work. I’m learning something new every day (probably cause my manager hands off at least 2-3 new tasks/day).

So I don’t know if the discontent is my reaction to being the ‘newbie’ for the first time in 20 years. OR…if it’s due to the fact that I’m no longer in the industry where I spent those 20 years (an industry that I happen to really like). OR…the fact that this job is turning out to be a “bit” (HA!) more technical than I was originally told. OR I am being pulled outside of yet another of my “comfort zones”? OR…am I just a person who truly doesn’t know WHAT she wants to do and/or how to get there?

I haven’t a clue.

Well…that’s not exactly true. I know…what I probably should do about this situation…and what I really want to do long-term. BUT…I don’t know how to get there from here. Or is that just another one of the many little lies I as self-saboteur tell myself? Ugh! Nothing like a breakthrough – or reminder of a previous breakthrough) in the middle of one of my muddled ramblings huh?

Well…until I either figure out my career quagmire…or how to bring myself to be beautifully, bravely bold enough to stand up in the face of my dream and ‘walk it out’…..even as the answers are unfolding along the path I take.

I’ll be mulling this one over for a minute.

Wish me luck.

**How ironic is it that I *JUST* got an email titled “12 Keys for Success in the Workplace”? Wonder if “Be sure you’re in the RIGHT workplace for you” is on the list. LOL **

A friend of mine blogged about this “Palin-tology” epidemic recently. I left a “blog post” in his comments section (got a tad carried away) but since I was so ‘wordy’, he couldn’t post it. I don’t feel like digging them up either. *sigh* Maybe later…

BUT…can somebody explain THIS one little thing to me please? I’d be ever so grateful. I truly would.

OK, recently some guy made a statement regarding Palin’s foreign policy experience. Something about how Alaska is the closest US state to Russia. THEN John McClain’s wife, “Cindy Plastique”, picked up the comment and repeated during one of HER interviews.

Well, along comes Sarah and SHE says that you can see Russia from Alaska.

*crickets*

Um…what?

And?

The point would be……?

You can see it from a plane too but that doesn’t qualify as “foreign policy” experience any more than living next door to a church makes you a Christian.

See? This is clearly a case of someone taking that whole “six degrees of separation” too far.

That Sarah! She is a card, is she not?

I heard this song earlier this week. First time in a L-O-N-G time. Reminded me of two things:

1. How much I like the song

2. That I really WOULD ‘rather be with you’. Yes YOU “Baby Bubba”. LOL - yeah, I got the Bootsy lingo down.

Bootsy does play a mean bass, don’t he? Oh, I meant a mean SPACE BASS. If you ever saw he perform this song live, you know that the bass ain’t the only thing that gets down and dirty. LOL

THIS IS A PUBLIC SERVICE ANNOUNCEMENT:

If you’re going through hell - keep going. Stop “sight-seeing”, stop slowing down, stop staying overnight. Keep it moving! Pedal to the metal ya’ll. For real!!

Better yet? Make better travel plans!

In honor of 9/11, no blog post today. Please check out the site below.

Peace Takes Courage: NEVER FORGET

Much love, peace & prayers,
*~* MsJayy *~*

Really?

NO such thing?

I know what the “intent” is behind that statement but…um….

If you call my house knowing I don’t have any phone gadgetry such as call-forwarding, etc. and I answer and you ask me “Where are you?”….um….I’m sorry…but THAT is a stupid question.

So is the question that the Wall Street Journal asked Tom Joyner yesterday after the polls showed McCain ahead (?) or even with Obama.

The WSJ asked Joyner, “What is Black America going to do if Obama doesn’t win?”

*crickets*

Now you tell me that isn’t a stupid question.

Did the WSJ ask a White person “What is White America going to do if Obama does win?”
Did they ask an Asian person? Hispanic? Native American?

Or to keep in line with their tone, ask a White person “What is White America going to do if McCain doesn’t win?”

*sigh*

Da hell you think ANY of us are gonna do? We gon’ keep living, keep laughing, keep loving, keep pushing, keep making things happen, keep raising our kids, keep making ends meet…and most importantly, keep our foot in the asses of those folks in Washington. Whether they are Black like us or otherwise.

“No such thing as a stupid question.”

Exhibit A: “What is Black America going to do if Obama doesn’t win?”

I rest my case.

“No such thing as a stupid question.”

Puhleeze.

I started this blog post yesterday while I was at work.

I woke up yesterday with “Today is the day” in my mind. The day I push through some blocks I’m having at work. The day I push through some things I’ve been putting off in my personal life. The day I knock that low-hanging fruit off my to-do lists. You know…just get some things done that I’ve been dragging around for too long. Get them done rather than changing completion dates on MS Outlook Tasks. LOL

So…after having made up my mind that “Today is the day” you know what happened right?

Monday walked right up to me, grabbed me by the collar and slammed me into the wall. Repeatedly. Then dusted itself off, hummed a little town, and sauntered off as if nothing had happened.

LOL

Ain’t THAT about a blip?!?!?

Ok, here’s the real deal:

….I got mugged yesterday….

Yes my friends, MONDAY mugged me.

Snatched me as I was walking down the steps in the parking deck. Slammed me against the wall repeatedly and beat me all day long. I glimpsed Tuesday peeking around the corner, watching out the corner of its eye, not even trying to get involved. Wednesday turned its head saying, “Shoot, they been calling me ‘Hump Day’ all my life. You try dealing with THAT. Hmph! I got enough problems of my own!”. Thursday was like, “Girl, I’m chilling, trying to catch these last few zzzzzz’s. You’ll be a’ight.”

And Friday? Well, Friday just nodded its head, smiled a little and says, “Who loves ya Baby? See, by the time I get to town, you’ll DEFINITELY be singing T-to-the-G-to-the-I-to-the-F! AND meaning it.” Saturday was all laid back, talking ’bout “not liking conflict and not messing up its reputation”. Sunday? Sunday told me, “I’m already praying for ya.”

It’s a cold cold world ya’ll.

::: peeping out my mini-blinds to be sure Monday’s gone…me & Tuesday done already come to an agreement: I ain’t bothering her, she won’t bother me. ::::

It’s a new day.

In more ways than one.

Make it count.

Love me some India.Arie!

And THIS song right here? LOVE.IT. L-O-V-E IT!

“Beautiful Surprise”

It’s like yesterday
I didn’t even know your name
Now today
You’re always on my mind
I never could have predicted that I feel this way
You are beautiful surprise
Intoxicated every time I hear your voice
You’ve got me on a natural high
It’s almost like I didn’t even have a choice
You are a beautiful surprise

Whatever it is you came to teach me
I am here to learn it cause
I believe that we are written in the stars
I don’t know what the future holds
But I’m living in the moment
And I’m thankful for the man that you are, you are, you are
You are everything I ask for in my prayers
So I know my angels brought you to my life
Your energy is healing to my soul
You are a beautiful surprise
You are an inspiration to my life
You are the reason why I smile
You are a beautiful surprise

Thursday, September 4, 2008

MAYOR TO RESIGN
MAYOR KILPATRICK PLEADS: ‘I LIED UNDER OATH’

George Hunter and Doug Guthrie / The Detroit News

DETROIT — In four short words, Mayor Kwame M. Kilpatrick acknowledged his guilt this morning, admitting that he lied during the whistleblower case brought by two former police officers who claimed they were punished for looking into wrongdoing by the mayor’s staff.

“I lied under oath,” Kilpatrick said after he pleaded guilty to two felonies, a pled that will require him to spend four months in the Wayne County jail, to resign his office and to pay $1 million in restitution.

Kilpatrick will also agree not to seek office during the five years he is on probation and will surrender his state pension to the county. He will also surrender his law license.

In exchange, Wayne County prosecutors will drop the remaining six charges against him — including the perjury counts — and agree to not prosecute him for other issues that arouse from the investigation into the perjury and obstruction of justice case.

The resignation is to occur immediately and he is to pay $20,000 of the restitution when he is sentenced, which is expected to occur on Oct. 28.

Kilpatrick pleaded guilty to two counts of obstruction of justice and Judge David Groner accepted the plea. Kilpatrick also pleaded no contest to an assault charge against him stemming from a confrontation with two investigators on July 24. The other assault charge was dropped.

Kilpatrick said he was in agreement with the deal. But after Groner, going through routine language regarding a plea bargain, asked Kilpatrick that he was giving up his right to be innocent until proven guilty.

“I think I gave up that right a long time ago,” Kilpatrick said.

You can reach George Hunter at (313) 222-2134 or ghunter@detnews.com

Kilpatrick Pleads I Lied Under Oath/”

*~*~*~*~*~*

Well. That’s that.

Let the healing begin….