Got up (on time *snicker) this morning. Showered. Layered myself in body oil and my favorite summer scent. And then….

I put on my “big girl panties” before stepping into my ensemble and lacing up my sandals.

Yep, “Big.Girl.Panties” .

Had to go there today. Cause…I gots to deal with what I gots to deal with . There are no alternatives. Just gotta step into the “BGPs”, roll up my sleeves, deal with what I need to deal with and then…move smoove the hell on.

Not gonna lie. It’s not comfortable but you know what? Seeking “comfortable” is what got me in this situation in the first place. Trying to take the easy way out. Hmph! “Comfort” is a tricky little thing - like those hot rolls at O’Charleys — you can keep reaching for them if you want to but at some point they’re going to bite you back. LOL

Had a nice little talky-talk with myself on the way in to work this morning. Everything was irritating me. Everything. And then I started predicting how this situation was going to play out – what they would say, how I would respond…I was seriously doing the Francis Ford Coppolla thing in my head, directed my own personal movie apparently titled “Warped Intentions”. LOL

I had to hurry up and yell, “CUT!!”. I was expending so much energy and focus on what I thought “they” were going to say and do that I’d completely lost focus of the only thing in this situation that I have control over: ME. (And some days THAT control is flimsy.)

So I slowed down. Literally - cause ya’ll know I was burning up the highway. And figuratively - cause all that nonsense can NOT roam unattended in my head, I’m not having it.

And so, I decided to send an “eviction notice” of sorts to those “Warped Intentions” and negative vibes. And I did so in the form of one of my favorite “power tools” – a question.

I asked myself this one question: “HOW DO I WANT TO SHOW UP IN THIS SITUATION FOR THE NEXT HOWEVER-MANY-DAYS-IT-LASTS?”

That’s it. That one “simple” question brought me right back to center. Helped me realign myself with reality. Reaffirmed my own accountability. Reminded me of all I was able to and needed to focus on: who I am, how I am, and why I am.

It is such a beautiful thang to know that Life has that great big built-in “learning curve”. Yes indeed.

I pulled that question out of the “emergency travel kit” just in time. Cause ain’t NOTHING in life worse than walking around all day with ya “Big Girl Panties” in a bunch.

Trust me – ain’t NOTHING cute ‘bout dat.

Reminded of who I am…and loving me some her,
*~* MsJayy *~*